I’m really not.
[This IS a rant. I just need to get things out.]
I’m a really observant person, so I just don’t talk much unless I really have something to say. And then when I don’t do things others want me to, I’m a buzzkill, or something like that. Well, I must say, I’m not going to apologize for being who I am. There are things I don’t feel comfortable doing, so I’m not going to. It may be the summer, and it may be a Friday night, but I’m not going to lie to my parents about where I’m going at minutes to midnight. And I’m not going to wait for my dad to go to sleep and then take his car. You wouldn’t be the one getting the ticket(s) if we were to get pulled over. I would. And it wouldn’t even have to be for something I do. I could get two very expensive tickets, tickets I cannot pay for, for having two people in the car, who are underage, and aren’t even related to me. My brother works at a police station. How would that freaking look?
And then there’s the fact that you only want to go somewhere because you want to smoke. You know smoking is something that I am never going to do. You know that’s not who I am. I’m not into smoking and drinking and all that stuff; mostly because that’s not how I was raised, but also because I don’t see how you can have any fun in that. How is it fun if you don’t remember anything you’re doing? I come from a family where we have more fun sitting around, watching Criminal Minds or Extreme Makeover: Home Edition; or, just talking with each other. That’s just how we are.
You might not care, but you’re not the one who’s gonna get in trouble for anything. I am. I know for a fact, that if I get into any trouble from now until the time I graduate from college, my mother will not even hesitate to stop paying for school/band for me. I am not willing to risk everything I’ve worked for since I started high school, just so you can have a little fun.